No secret, Bagolitas is in a state of flux. For a woman like myself that likes a clear path from A to B, not knowing what B is (where am I trying to get to?!) has made me a prisoner of my own thoughts. I’m officially annoying myself!
Jesus said, “Live out your God-created identity.” –Matthew 5:48
Brilliant, only I’m having trouble hearing him. I’ve been seeking answers and I’m now asking for a bullhorn. (wouldn’t that be divine?) Unfortunately, as much as I try, I’m not in control (what?!) and I just have to wait for the big news I long for to be revealed slowly and sweetly as I spend time with him.
So in the meantime, here is the latest on what is in store for Bagolitas in 2011. We’ve spent the last few months closing down the home party side of the business, which was hard to say the least: so many wonderful memories along the way. As I’ve turned my attention to moving forward with our online business, there is still more change in store.
It’s been so hard to know what direction to go, but the manufacturing world and investing in inventory is a very risky industry to be in as the price of cotton is increasing dramatically in addition to the continued uncertain economic times. Additionally, I have spent the last 6 years working full time while raising my kids and I have at last decided to officially take Bagolitas all the way back to it’s roots – just myself, sewing boutique style products and handbags in my home.
This is scary for many reasons, the first being the extent of my sewing capabilities. I will likely need to call in reinforcements (a.k.a. mom). I am also finding it incredibly hard to let myself take it down a few notches and just enjoy being at home. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy a good late night and having everyone miraculously wake up to fresh laundry and a clean house… But sitting by the fireplace with a cup of coffee after the bus pulls away feels sinful, not to mention that my body is rejoicing in a full nights sleep – who knew we really do need 8 hours? But most important is where my heart is, not my head that’s been driving me crazy trying to figure this all out. It is swelling with gratitude that I have had such amazing support, love (and fun!) through this entire journey and am so blessed to be able to wind it down for a while and catch my breath.
I’m still not sure where this journey is taking me (or what I’ll be making!), but I’ll be sure to let you know when I hear the bullhorn!